It's Been A While

Here's what's happened in the past 4-ish weeks:

1. I started working. I actually like my job. It's not stressful, which is a big plus for me. Especially if I plan on working and going to school at the same time. The people I work with are nice and overall, it's a good company.
2. I've lost 58 lbs to date. I bought a whole new wardrobe (mostly for work) and I feel fabulous!! I look pretty good, too :)
3. I finally took my LSAT. It was not as bad as I thought it was going to be. Which means I'm either smarter than I thought I was or I'm not at all and I did really bad. I'm hoping it's the former.
   
4. I've also started filling out my applications for schools. I'm struggling with my personal statement. I haven't led an interesting life. I'm not a crack baby, I was never homeless, I grew up with both parents in a loving home. I'm not being flip. I just sometimes feel like those are the types of stories schools like to hear about; it's almost like you have to show that you can overcome diversity to handle higher education. Hopefully I can form an essay that doesn't suck.
5. I have a lot of things personally that I need to work out. My instinct is to fight and get revenge, but a little part of me thinks I should let go and let God. I'm going to pray that little part of me gets bigger and I can handle this with class and grace.
   

T-Minus 30 days

This time next month, I will be taking the LSAT. For which I am non too prepared.

How can that be, you ask? Simple. I am so completely unmotivated, it's not even funny. It's weird. I've wanted to go to law school for as long as I can remember. When most people want something this badly, they work their asses off for it. Why am I not doing that?

Truth be told, there are several schools I could get into without bothering to study. But I don't think they're any schools that I would want to go to. FAMU, for example. They don't have very high standards, as far as the test scores go, for their incoming students. However, the last thing I want to do is stay in FL. I'm not even applying to any schools here because I don't want to get stuck. That's probably not a smart idea but it's what I'm going with for now.

I just hope I can get it together and learn something in the next month or I may very well be stuck in the hell that is Florida.

I Want It All

A few weeks ago, I went to my parents' house for our family reunion. One of my uncles came with his current girlfriend, who happens to work in the entertainment industry. Finally, a way in!!

We got to talking and I told her about my plans for law school and wanting to go into entertainment law, but that I also wanted a job in PR. We exchanged information and she told me about some leads she could start for me. I received a call from her today and her first question was which ranked higher on my list? School or work?

Umm...both?

I honestly don't know which I would choose, if it came down to that. Law school has been a dream of mine since I was a freshman, but I can't pay my hospital bills, doctor bills, credit card bills and student loans with dreams. It seems more important to make money so I can get out of debt. But I don't want to be 50, saying to myself "what if I would've gone to law school?"

Decisions, decisions.

I'm Back. For now.

So turns out there has been a big change in my life and it's pretty exciting. I know, it's a tease to say that and then not share, but whatever. I'll do what I want. LOL. However, those of you that read this and are in on the secret, thanks for keeping it to yourselves.

I'm currently in Jacksonville at my parents' house and the fact that I am unable to sleep in one of my least favorite cities in the world.....well, let's just say I'm not happy. Why don't I just leave? Yeah, good question. Also part of the secret, so I'll just say "I can't."

I'm not able to take the LSAT this month, which is kind of a bummer, but I also didn't study as much as I should have, so it's kind of a good thing. I've signed up to take the one in December, but that's cutting it close. I've been really buckling down so hopefully I'll do well. I was all about going to MSU Law because I've always wanted to go there. But nooooow, Brooklyn Law is making a strong comeback.

You might be thinking, "um, remember that time you went to NY?" And yes, I do. I feel like this time would be different. I'm a strong believer in "everything happens for a reason" and I believe that everything has a time and a place. Maybe last time wasn't really my time and I was trying to force it to be. Maybe this time is. But I won't know until I go. Plus, being there for school is different than being there all willy nilly. I'd have a purpose and a guaranteed place to live for at least my first year. Which is part of the school's appeal. MSU doesn't have that. FAIL. I NEEEED to live north of Florida. I am so jealous of everyone and their fall clothes and pumpkin spice lattes.

Which we obviously have in FL, but how much fun is it to wear a super cute sweater and boots and sip hot lattes in 80 degree weather?

Figuring Out What to Do with Life. Take 2.

If you've been following along, you know that my Bright Lights, Big City dream didn't pan out the way I planned. Now I'm on to the next step in my life.

Taking the LSAT.

This is something I have been saying I was going to do ever since I graduated. Wayyyyy back in 2005. I've never done it because I've always had this fear of failing it miserably, and then what? It's kind of like the ace in my pocket, or whatever that saying is. I've done and tried everything else and law school is kind of a last resort. Well, not really a last resort, but it's the one thing I feel I have left to try before it's like, okay, you've used up all your options.

So there you go.

I'm already overwhelmed at all the school possibilities. I know that I want to do either entertainment law or civil rights law, but that's about all I've got right now. Oh, and the test is in October, so I should probably do less blogging and more studying? Yeah. Good idea.

Another thing I will be embarking on is finding ways to make my life more interesting in general. One thing I thought about when leaving NYC was that my blog would slowly become less interesting and funny because I'm in a less interesting and funny environment right now. A friend told me she would follow my blog anyway because I'm funny, and I told her that I view myself as situationally funny, at best (which I'm not even sure is a word, but you get what I mean). So nooooow, I have to put myself in situations to get good writings. First on the list, go to some of the companies I've applied to and talk to them in person.

This could either be a really good thing or a really bad thing. I'll let you know.