Hallelujah!

Today is the first day I've made it this many hours without being sick.

Small victory, but I'll take it :)

What the Shit?

I am beyond annoyed for the following reasons:

1. Our AC is broken. Has been since Saturday and is supposed to be treated as an emergency when the temp is over 90. Yup. Still broken.
2. I am constantly nauseous and I can't eat anything. No, I'm not pregnant because.....
3. The dreaded monthly intruder has been here going on 13 days. Highly unusual considering I'm on BC and have been forever.
4. But I can't go to the doctor because I don't have any money.
5. My heartburn and reflux is about 100x worse since I had my hernia repaired. If I had known that was going to happen, I wouldn't have done it.
   

I hate life.

Sweet Home...um...Orlando

I'm FINALLY leaving Jacksonville tomorrow. Hallelujah! Tomorrow marks the 11th day I've been here. I know I make it sound as though I've been stranded on an island but that's seriously how I feel. I'm a little sad to leave my mom because I know she's going to have a not so great time for a little while, but I'll be back in a few weeks for our bi-annual family reunion/thanksgiving in October.

I wasn't going to come back for it, but since I haven't seen my sister in 5 years (if not more) I figured it would be a better idea if I was here. Also, she threatened my life if I did not come.

I am looking forward to a plethora of food......

WWFS

I don't have the best relationship with my parents. Not that it's a bad one, but it is strictly a parent-child relationship. When I was younger, I guess their mentality was (and by their, I really mean my dad's) to teach us kids that we are not friends; they are the parents and we are the children.

I would assume most parents start out like that, as not to blur the lines. However, as the child(ren) get older, that relationship is supposed to morph to one of not child and parent, but adult child and parent. Many of my friends talk about being best friends with their parents and that is something that is completely foreign to me. I've used to want that type of closeness with my parents and now, at almost 30, I feel like it's something that won't happen. But I'm oddly okay with that.

Currently, my father is not speaking to me due to recent decisions I've made in my life. He hasn't spoken to me in exactly one week. Actually, that's not true. He's spoken to me 5 times since last Monday. My sister thinks I should apologize to him and at first, I thought so, too. But now I feel like why should I? I will be 28 next month. I am a grown woman and I will continue to make decisions for my life without his approval or permission. If/when SD proposes, I won't call first to make sure I can say yes. I won't call and ask if it's okay to have a baby, or to move to another state, or to do anything else that has to do strictly with my life.

Yesterday, SD asked if my father was driving me crazy yet and I told him he hasn't been speaking to me. SD asked if him not speaking to me was better than him speaking to me and I said yes, it was. How sad is it when someone says that your silent treatment is better than actual conversation with you?

What would Freud say?

I'm Back. For now.

So turns out there has been a big change in my life and it's pretty exciting. I know, it's a tease to say that and then not share, but whatever. I'll do what I want. LOL. However, those of you that read this and are in on the secret, thanks for keeping it to yourselves.

I'm currently in Jacksonville at my parents' house and the fact that I am unable to sleep in one of my least favorite cities in the world.....well, let's just say I'm not happy. Why don't I just leave? Yeah, good question. Also part of the secret, so I'll just say "I can't."

I'm not able to take the LSAT this month, which is kind of a bummer, but I also didn't study as much as I should have, so it's kind of a good thing. I've signed up to take the one in December, but that's cutting it close. I've been really buckling down so hopefully I'll do well. I was all about going to MSU Law because I've always wanted to go there. But nooooow, Brooklyn Law is making a strong comeback.

You might be thinking, "um, remember that time you went to NY?" And yes, I do. I feel like this time would be different. I'm a strong believer in "everything happens for a reason" and I believe that everything has a time and a place. Maybe last time wasn't really my time and I was trying to force it to be. Maybe this time is. But I won't know until I go. Plus, being there for school is different than being there all willy nilly. I'd have a purpose and a guaranteed place to live for at least my first year. Which is part of the school's appeal. MSU doesn't have that. FAIL. I NEEEED to live north of Florida. I am so jealous of everyone and their fall clothes and pumpkin spice lattes.

Which we obviously have in FL, but how much fun is it to wear a super cute sweater and boots and sip hot lattes in 80 degree weather?

Adios

Bye for now. My life is boring now and since my blog was about my life, it is boring, too.

I'll be back when shit picks up.

Mr. Telephone Man, There's Something Wrong with my Line

I mean, there's gotta be because my phone has not been ringing with any jobs offers. This has never happened to me before; I've ALWAYS been able to get a job. We can blame it on the economy, but really, I don't think that's entirely true. On any given day, I can check facebook and another friend is talking about an interview they are going on or a new job they are about to start. So really, it's not that companies aren't hiring, it's that they're not hiring me.

It seems to be about who you know and not WHAT you know. If I was one of the fortunate ones to have some awesome connections, I'd be thinking that this was a great thing. But alas, I am not.

The two most annoying question I get asked are:

1. "are you actively looking for a job?" Ummm no. I'm not. I've been hoping that an HR manager will get a sign from God that Danielle is looking for a job. A burning bush, perhaps, or frogs raining from the sky. No active participation on my part required.
   
2. "are you applying for ones that you are qualified for?" Nope. I'm only applying for the CEO position with Sony Music. Everything else is beneath me.

Clearly, I am looking for pretty much anything that will pay me in American monies. Now, do I want to work the graveyard shift at 7-11 for $8.50/hour? No. Obviously I need a job that makes it worth my while to get up and go to. Meaning, I need a job that will let me pay my bills. But am I above being a secretary? Not at all.

In conclusion, I am still looking for a job. Holler.