Monday, October 31, 2011

Stuck in a moment and I can't get out of it

I swear I have aged 40 years since Thursday. When I have this many thought running through my head, I like to use bullets to I don't for get anything. I also try to do them in order, but that doesn't always work, so forgive me.

  • This past Thursday, I got engaged to the love of my life!
  • He bought my dream ring that I have been talking about pretty much since we met :)
From there, it went downhill

  • Told my mother, she was ecstatic. Told my father, he was not so much. Side note: he STILL hasn't said congratulations
  • He couldn't even be bothered to look at my ring which
  • Pissed my fiance off and in turn
  • Pissed me off
  • My fiance had to fly back to Seattle :(
Then it got a little better

  • My mom assured us that she and my father would pay for the wedding
  • Her getting excited about dress shopping, planner shopping, and shopping in general made me get excited
But of course, it didn't last

  • Turns out my dad is racist
  • He went so far as to give me reading material on hate crimes and the dangers that can befall an interracial couple
  • He claims to have no money to pay for a wedding
Then it went up a little

  • My mom said she would talk to my dad about his dickheadedness
  • And it didn't matter, we would plan my wedding without him
Sigh, when will I learn

  • She tells me SHE can't afford to pay for a wedding
  • I have a sneaking suspicion my father has managed to change her mind
So basically I went from over the moon because I'm finally engaged to my soul mate to wanting to jump out of my office window because it looks like I won't be having a wedding.

Isn't this shit supposed to be the best time of my life?!?
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  1. Stephen DayNovember 19, 2011 at 1:41 AM

    I'm glad you're back to writing again, it helps to clear your mind and get stuff off your chest it's really a good way to vent any emotions.

    This is usually the reason I talk to you or write you so many emails because you are a good listener and usually help me to feel better and often make me a better man.

    I love you honey and regardless of how things turn out with any of our family or friends please remember one thing, this is our moment and our happiness and no one can take that away from us no matter how people act or react.

    You are my one true soul mate and will always be a part of my life. I will stick by your side through the good times and the bad. I will always back you up right or wrong. You are gonna be my wife and I'm proud of you and how strong of a woman you are, you can handle anything.

    I really miss you and can't wait till we can see each other again and I smile so big it feels like I tore all the muscles in my face :)

    I need you here and now more than ever but often times my emotions cloud my judgment which is why I'm glad I have you to balance me out and bring me down to earth and it's sometimes sad and harsh realities but we will prevail and as long as you are a part of my life I will always be happy and content with living a life with you.

    Stay strong, keep your head up, smile and brush that dirt off your shoulder :)

    I love you!!!

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