Namaste

I really feel like maybe I should start doing yoga or perhaps meditating. Lately, I've been getting really irritated with people. I wouldn't say that it's for no reason, but maybe I should learn to let things go. At least, that's what my mom keeps telling me.

That's not my nature, though. While I do know how to choose my battles, there are some things that irk the hell out of me and I just can't let it go. Like a few days ago when my brother asked me how my job search was going. First of all, that's just annoying. Am I still unemployed? Okay then. That should be an indication of how it's going. What really pissed me off is when he said "I bet a masters in psychology is looking really good right now."

Actually, it's not. Yes. 10 YEARS AGO I want to be a psychologist. However, I have since changed my mind so whyyyyyy would I get an advanced degree in something I don't wish to make my career? Exactly. It bothers me to no end when people are basically telling me that what I choose to do now is not good enough or not a good decision. Which I expressed to him and that should be the end of it. However, I can't stop thinking about how annoying that moment was. That's how it's been lately with a lot of different situations. It'd be one thing if I held my feelings in and let them fester, but I don't. I make them quite known but I still can't let it go.

I might need something stronger than yoga. A lobotomy, perhaps.